A Letter for Him

Dear you,

Thank you for all the memories. For all the chills you gave me, the moments we spent together. I didn't know but as time pass by, my love for you went deeper and deeper that it hurts. I missed you. I missed spending my whole afternoon with you. I missed how I was always excited during saturdays because I know I'll be seeing you again. I missed all your phone calls. I missed all your sweet text messages. I missed sleeping late at night just talking to you. All those silly things we used to do. I hate how I missed everything about you. But now, I know I can't do anything. I'll just stand there, talk to you like nothing happened, like it doesn't hurt because I know, right now, you don't care. I don't know why I started writing this but I just want to let you know that I loved you more than any man I ever loved. I don't know if I can still love another person just the way I did to you for I am afraid to get hurt, I dont think I can handle any more pain like this. The moment I heard about you and her my heart crashed into a million pieces but I hate it that with all the little pieces it still longs for you. Im afraid to say this, but I'm still hoping. Hoping that we can still get a chance. Maybe if you just did know how I feel for you, maybe we also worked things out, but I was trying to save our friendship because I never want to lose you in my life. This sounds corny or something pero what can we do, that's love. Even though how hard I try, I dont want to break your relationship, I just want the both of you to be happy. I know there are still many fishes in the sea, but at the moment you're my favorite fish. (that's funny, was laughing) I just want you to have a great relationship. Hope she loves you more than I do, not trying to be martyr or bitter or something, I hope you never know my feelings though its hard for me to keep it I have to do it. I don't have the right to be jealous or something cause I know and you know that nothing was going on between us ( or maybe there is, we just didn't know. LOL). I just want to be happy and for you to be happy also. I love you but I have to let go. Thank you! :')

Love,
Kim