I just need some company and thank you for all the people who wrote these songs!! you clearly tell through a song everything that I've been going through
1. Erase You - Nikki Flores
Look out my window, I can see the sun shine. Up in my bedroom, I can see myself crying. And my pillow is a swimming pool. I just don't understand why you did what you did. My girls told me that I should watch for you. I can't help it, I've fallen so dumb for you. But silly me, I keep thinking I could make you fall in love.
2. What Hurts The Most - Monica
Thing have changed, they're not the same and recently you found someone that you decided to dedicate your whole life to and what we had is about to be through. And baby, what hurts the most is letting go. I just want you to know that I love you so. I know things are different now, you've gone and settled down. And I though for sure you'd always wait for me.
3. The One I Gave My Heart To - Aaliyah
How could the one I gave my heart to, break my heart so bad? How could the one who made me happy, make me feel so sad? Won't somebody tell me, so I can understand. If you love me, how could you hurt me like that? How could the one I gave my world to, throw my world away?
4. Going Crazy - Natalie
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch. I never thought that I could ever love a man so much. I gotta let you know, I think that we are destiny. For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything. I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you. I'm calling out to you what am I going to do? It's true, no fronting. It's you and no other I can no longer go on without you, I'll just break down.
5. I Never Told You - Colbie Caillat
But I never told you what I should have said. No, I never told you. I just held it in. And now I miss everything about you. I can't believe it, I still want you. After all the thing we's been through. I miss everything about you, without you.
3/14/13
Happiness is always followed by Sadness
March 14
What a great day has it been. It's been the greatest day ever! damn. A little thing said in a just a few sec totally broke my heart and again changed a part of me.
Nothing really lasts forever. Even happiness. So I guess you all have read about my last blog about Aaaa<3? Now he's just another ordinary guy I happened to be attached with. Another dumbass. I cannot really blame him for everything that has happened, I admit it, it's all my fault. I expected too much from him. I thought after all the things we've been through the feelings will slowly become mutual but no. He's been playing with me. I just don't get why... He knew all along what I feel for him and yet he still tagged along making me feel like there's still a chance. Ugh I am so unlucky with guys. But yeah, just a few hours ago we were talking and suddenly he's indirectly telling me that he doesn't like me maybe just a friend but not more than that. Fuck. But who wouldn't misunderstood everything he did? He's been always there for me. He never forgets to talk to me. He's been very caring. He gets jealous. When we get into fights he doesn't want to end the night that we're not okay. He makes me feel special. But I don't know. Maybe I just made everything he do a big deal because I like him. Ahhhh I don't know anymore. I don't know what to believe in anymore. It's like I want him to go away as much as I want him to stay. He makes me happy and he makes me sad. I want to punch him and I want to hug him. I hate him but I love him. It's been very hard for me but it's seem so easy for him to utter the words good bye.
The hardest part of loving someone who doesn't love you back is when they decide to like somebody else and you just sit there act like you're happy for them and you just have to let go of something you never had. Smile when your eyes meet. Dying to say how better you are compared to the other girl but you can't do anything because you don't have the right to be jealous because he's not yours. There's just so many songs i've been listening to right now that best explains how I feel at the very moment but nothing of all these drama shit can bring you back to me. You think you're better off without me and I can't do anything to stop you from thinking that.
Kim
What a great day has it been. It's been the greatest day ever! damn. A little thing said in a just a few sec totally broke my heart and again changed a part of me.
Nothing really lasts forever. Even happiness. So I guess you all have read about my last blog about Aaaa<3? Now he's just another ordinary guy I happened to be attached with. Another dumbass. I cannot really blame him for everything that has happened, I admit it, it's all my fault. I expected too much from him. I thought after all the things we've been through the feelings will slowly become mutual but no. He's been playing with me. I just don't get why... He knew all along what I feel for him and yet he still tagged along making me feel like there's still a chance. Ugh I am so unlucky with guys. But yeah, just a few hours ago we were talking and suddenly he's indirectly telling me that he doesn't like me maybe just a friend but not more than that. Fuck. But who wouldn't misunderstood everything he did? He's been always there for me. He never forgets to talk to me. He's been very caring. He gets jealous. When we get into fights he doesn't want to end the night that we're not okay. He makes me feel special. But I don't know. Maybe I just made everything he do a big deal because I like him. Ahhhh I don't know anymore. I don't know what to believe in anymore. It's like I want him to go away as much as I want him to stay. He makes me happy and he makes me sad. I want to punch him and I want to hug him. I hate him but I love him. It's been very hard for me but it's seem so easy for him to utter the words good bye.
The hardest part of loving someone who doesn't love you back is when they decide to like somebody else and you just sit there act like you're happy for them and you just have to let go of something you never had. Smile when your eyes meet. Dying to say how better you are compared to the other girl but you can't do anything because you don't have the right to be jealous because he's not yours. There's just so many songs i've been listening to right now that best explains how I feel at the very moment but nothing of all these drama shit can bring you back to me. You think you're better off without me and I can't do anything to stop you from thinking that.
Kim
3/11/13
Seniors' Bash!
Page 69 of 365
So it was our Senior's Bash! It's like the last event we're gonna have as a batch in Ateneo as High School Students! It was really fun and exciting! Created a lot of memories and there I realized that I really made a lot of friends during the years I spent here in Ateneo. It was really memorable and worth remembering! But the memories didn't come from the Bash alone but also the After Party!
so this is me wt my mom before going to the bash
The afterparty was held in Frankie's Bar. It's located in Nova Tierra, in front of the Jollibee going to Paradise Island in Samal. So it was really far from school where our bash was held, like a 30 minute car ride. Almost 3/4 of the batch was there even those I didn't expect to come were there! It really felt that we are a family. And since it's an after party there were a lot of drinks served like beer, vodka, tequila and etc. I didn't drink too much just enough to make me dizzy about 3 shots? haha i know i'm not a good drinker but as much as I was controlling myself to not get drunk almost all of my batchmates did.. haha It was really fun seeing them get drunk they're insane! They just kept on dancing and dancing and dancing! It was superb! hahaha Most of them were my innocent batchmates like the people I didn't expect would drink =)) It was really amazing that nobody was KJ everybody was so into it. And because of that I made a lot of friends inside a bar.. can you imagine that we became friends inside a bar!! hahaha and the best friend I ever met that night was Jam, she's like the coolest kid in our batch this year, she's a transferree from California!
That's Jam! The girl in a floral dress! Isn't she gorg? So the next day almost every tweet on twitter goes like this " Omgg friends na kami ni Jam " and I can't believe na there are also a lot from my batch besides me who wanted to be friends with her, so now can you imagine how cool she is? haha! but going back.. There were really a lot of seniors who got drunk and I even heard there were 2 girls who french kissed which is kinda awkk haha so yeah that was definitely one of the most memorable event in my senior life everrr! And I'm just proud that after all we still treat each other as a family. We take care of one another and always wants them to be safe always!! So aren't we the best batch yet? hmmm I guess so too! :)
Kim
So it was our Senior's Bash! It's like the last event we're gonna have as a batch in Ateneo as High School Students! It was really fun and exciting! Created a lot of memories and there I realized that I really made a lot of friends during the years I spent here in Ateneo. It was really memorable and worth remembering! But the memories didn't come from the Bash alone but also the After Party!
so this is me wt my mom before going to the bash
The afterparty was held in Frankie's Bar. It's located in Nova Tierra, in front of the Jollibee going to Paradise Island in Samal. So it was really far from school where our bash was held, like a 30 minute car ride. Almost 3/4 of the batch was there even those I didn't expect to come were there! It really felt that we are a family. And since it's an after party there were a lot of drinks served like beer, vodka, tequila and etc. I didn't drink too much just enough to make me dizzy about 3 shots? haha i know i'm not a good drinker but as much as I was controlling myself to not get drunk almost all of my batchmates did.. haha It was really fun seeing them get drunk they're insane! They just kept on dancing and dancing and dancing! It was superb! hahaha Most of them were my innocent batchmates like the people I didn't expect would drink =)) It was really amazing that nobody was KJ everybody was so into it. And because of that I made a lot of friends inside a bar.. can you imagine that we became friends inside a bar!! hahaha and the best friend I ever met that night was Jam, she's like the coolest kid in our batch this year, she's a transferree from California!
That's Jam! The girl in a floral dress! Isn't she gorg? So the next day almost every tweet on twitter goes like this " Omgg friends na kami ni Jam " and I can't believe na there are also a lot from my batch besides me who wanted to be friends with her, so now can you imagine how cool she is? haha! but going back.. There were really a lot of seniors who got drunk and I even heard there were 2 girls who french kissed which is kinda awkk haha so yeah that was definitely one of the most memorable event in my senior life everrr! And I'm just proud that after all we still treat each other as a family. We take care of one another and always wants them to be safe always!! So aren't we the best batch yet? hmmm I guess so too! :)
Kim
3/1/13
Hi Aaaa<3!
So this post is for you. haha. I am thankful that we got to spend the week together. Uhm I didn't know I'd fall for you bc I think you don't have the charms that I am looking for a guy but you were really nice and we kept staring at each other from time to time that sometimes it gets awkward to look at you and sometimes I think I've made it a habit to look at you na. It's just nice that every time I look at you, you're looking at me too. hihi. I get kilig all the time! :"> hahaha! It was pretty weird because for the last 3 nights that we were in La Filipina I keep on dreaming about you and me together. So every time I wake up I have a smile on my face and I immediately share what happened to Klowie and Irish. So I was thinking maybe it was just a coincidence since we see each other almost every hour. But on the 2nd night, It's pretty weird because I dreamed about you again. Mejj lumevel up nga eh bc on the first day daw we we're just holding hands wc is really weird haha and on the 2nd night we're having a date na in a park with our teammates and mejj nag huhug hug na so I was looking forward on what's going to happen on the 3rd night if ever I'll still be dreaming about you again. haha. I was trying to sleep that night when you went to our quarters and said good night to me. Honestly, I got kilig bc of that too! hahaha. So on the third night, unexpectedly, I dreamed about you again. Mejj lumevel up ulit but you only appeared for just a few sec lang. Medyo deja vu nga rin kasi what happened in my dream really happened except on what happened to us in my dream. You woke me up with a kiss daw, because you woke up really early and all of the boys went to our quarters to check on us and it's pretty weird kasi the following day the boys really went to our quarters early in the morning pero of course nothing happened weird naman to us. I didn't open my eyes pa nga eh when you guys were there. hahaha! Parang story telling na ito. =)) That day, I told myself na parang I'm starting to fall for you. a bit bc of my dreams and because of how you treat me.. like you text me kahit bago lang tayo nagsama or call me in the middle of the night when I can't sleep and you want to show me how you make fun of our other teammates.. you know the small things. it really matters to me! haha. and about the post title "Aaaa<3" it's because that's your name on my phone :) Share ako ng share kina Klowie and Irish about you but without the name like I call you with "siya" so they got really curious. And out of curiousity, during breakfast while I was drinking my milo Klowie suddenly grabbed my phone and alam mo naman na injured ako and for the sake of privacy I still ran. but it was too late, she read na some of your messages and somehow got a clue na on who you are. So they were really shocked when they knew that it was you. After that, diba we have a closing program and while waiting for the jeep sa canteen you suddenly sat beside me and they're like looking at me like teasing me pero chill lang talaga ako nun like normal but deep inside i'm really kilig. hahahaha. ang lande. but nung andun na tayo sa may hintayan ng jeep talaga, Klowie and Irish kept on talking with loud voices while teasing me like ginawa ko raw background picture sa twitter yung pic natin together and i kept on denying it and kept on saying NO na yung pic lang namin ni Jose yung ginawa kong bg before! So I kept saying the name Jose! Alam mo naman na I have past kay Jose and sobrang weird lang na after that you suddenly walked out and sumakay sa front seat ng jeep when normally dumidiretso ka lang naman sumakay sa likod with us. so Klowie said you got jealous daw and I was hoping na sana nga hahaha But I've been telling you naman na i've moved on na with him ano ba. ang tagal na nun jusko. =)) So we haven't really talked when we were at the complex and just saw each other ulit sa quarters na when we were preparing to ride the bus going home to Davao. So I originally planned to sit on the very back seat of the bus bc I think it would be more comfy but it was not and it was pretty boring so I sent a group message and accidentally included you but with my surprise kahit we're just 2 persons away nagtext ka and we kept on looking on each other which is kinda awkward because Irish and Klowie also kept looking at me with weird gazes like they're trying to say "uyyy" hahaha. I was hoping the bus ride would be long so that I wont have to say goodbye to you yet and I was pretty disappointed that we aren't sitting beside each other. But we're just texting na kahit pwede naman na mag usap nalang tayo but it gets embarassing kasi may tao in between us. So hindi ko talaga inexpect na you're serious when you said na you're gonna massage my knee kasi sinabi ko na it's hurting.. talagang pinalipat mo sila ng upuan so that you get to sit beside me but ofcourse nakakahiya na you're gonna touch my knee so we're just sitting there super close kahit malaki naman ang space and it was really really awkward.. but buti nalang after awhile mejj naging comfortable tayo pero puro small talks lang tayo and the rest kasi sige ka tickle sa akin, i kept pinching your wenis kasi it was super cute and your hair hahaha i like your hair better without wax. :p
I'm pretty much excited to see you again and I miss you and I really like you. Pero I'm not really expecting a lot kasi baka pala ganun ka lang kabait and na misunderstood ko lang kasi you know you did that to me before like akala ko there's something pero wala pala, you're such a meanie! hahaha pero sana iba na ngayon. :) I can't wait for the next time we're gonna be together again :)
xoxo,
Kim :)
Page 60 of 365
February 21 - March 1 (DAVRAA Week)
Heyyo guys!! It's been a month since I last posted here on my blog!! Wow, how i miss writing about my day!! So, I'm writing again...
So, It's the DAVRAA week!! The regionals was held in Tagum City about an hour away from Davao City. I was really excited and at the same time very nervous about the event since I know I haven't been training properly for the past few months! We only have 2 days training in Tagum before the games starts.
On the first day of the games I was really hyper and excited to see again my friends whom I only see during this time of the year! Sadly, most of them already graduated in High School and there's only a few left. After a long wait, there goes my first regional game of the season. My first opponent comes from Compostela Valley, actually all of my teammates' opponent are ComVal. So gladly, we got greater skills than them so not even one of them got the chance to win against us. Next in line is Mati, the greatest opponent of all! hahaha. My opponent is not new to me, I played against her last regionals in ComVal and won in just 2 sets! But this year was different, I haven't been practicing a lot and it's obvious that she really prepared so I was kinda nervous! Bc I was so tense, my play is very bad! I won the first but she got the 2nd set! We were the last game of the day so almost everyone was watching our third set, the most thrilling set ever! I was not in my best condition so it was a close fight, ended the game with me winning with 19-21! Can you imagine that? She almost beat me!! Thank God, I was able to withstand the game even though I was already exhausted due to lack of stamina! After the game, my coaches got really angry at me even though I won the game they told me It was really a poor performance from me and they were really nagging that I began to cry bc I realized I almost lost because I was over confident about myself & that angered me.. but even though they were pretty harsh I am still thankful that they are still there to support me all along, for being patient with me even though I get pretty lazy most of the time in training.. My coaches are the best!!!! :)
After that, it's already the last day for DAVRAA!! Wc means Championships! So my championship game is against my teammate, Ipay, whom I also got to play with last DCAA and ended up second so I was really nervous and already set my mind that this is going to be my game. I'm going to win this. I'm not gon' accept another defeat from her again.
She won the first set. Even though we're just teammates we still play like we're not friends, we have our own coaches with us. Second set, my mind was in ease bc in the first set I was so tense that I couldn't perform my strokes properly. I got the set point first (20), but she scored again so we got a Deuce. It was 22 all when something terrible happened! I got injured during the game!!! WTF!!!! I want to finish the game but my knee gave up and it was really painful because I dived in the court with my knee first to the ground then my body, can u feel me? it's like the most painful thing everrr. So I was just lying inside the court crying my heart out because I can't defend my title wc is the DAVRAA Champion, I really wanted to finish it but my coach stopped me. He forced me to just retire in the game. And then, after my knee got better he talked to me and told me to stop crying bc it wasn't worth it and it was my choice to not practice properly and regularly.. so yeah he was scolding me while I was crying in pain. But he was correct, it was all my fault. I was pretty relax about the game knowing that my opponent is training very hard! So bc of it, I just accepted my defeat. Me and Ipay are very good friends, we're enemies inside the court but not outside the court!! We're pretty much like best friends I could say.. haha we even took pictures after the game! =))
pic.twitter.com/eOX7ZMkgKv
(I don't have the pic in my laptop so I'm just gon' give you the link!)
Heyyo guys!! It's been a month since I last posted here on my blog!! Wow, how i miss writing about my day!! So, I'm writing again...
So, It's the DAVRAA week!! The regionals was held in Tagum City about an hour away from Davao City. I was really excited and at the same time very nervous about the event since I know I haven't been training properly for the past few months! We only have 2 days training in Tagum before the games starts.
On the first day of the games I was really hyper and excited to see again my friends whom I only see during this time of the year! Sadly, most of them already graduated in High School and there's only a few left. After a long wait, there goes my first regional game of the season. My first opponent comes from Compostela Valley, actually all of my teammates' opponent are ComVal. So gladly, we got greater skills than them so not even one of them got the chance to win against us. Next in line is Mati, the greatest opponent of all! hahaha. My opponent is not new to me, I played against her last regionals in ComVal and won in just 2 sets! But this year was different, I haven't been practicing a lot and it's obvious that she really prepared so I was kinda nervous! Bc I was so tense, my play is very bad! I won the first but she got the 2nd set! We were the last game of the day so almost everyone was watching our third set, the most thrilling set ever! I was not in my best condition so it was a close fight, ended the game with me winning with 19-21! Can you imagine that? She almost beat me!! Thank God, I was able to withstand the game even though I was already exhausted due to lack of stamina! After the game, my coaches got really angry at me even though I won the game they told me It was really a poor performance from me and they were really nagging that I began to cry bc I realized I almost lost because I was over confident about myself & that angered me.. but even though they were pretty harsh I am still thankful that they are still there to support me all along, for being patient with me even though I get pretty lazy most of the time in training.. My coaches are the best!!!! :)
After that, it's already the last day for DAVRAA!! Wc means Championships! So my championship game is against my teammate, Ipay, whom I also got to play with last DCAA and ended up second so I was really nervous and already set my mind that this is going to be my game. I'm going to win this. I'm not gon' accept another defeat from her again.
She won the first set. Even though we're just teammates we still play like we're not friends, we have our own coaches with us. Second set, my mind was in ease bc in the first set I was so tense that I couldn't perform my strokes properly. I got the set point first (20), but she scored again so we got a Deuce. It was 22 all when something terrible happened! I got injured during the game!!! WTF!!!! I want to finish the game but my knee gave up and it was really painful because I dived in the court with my knee first to the ground then my body, can u feel me? it's like the most painful thing everrr. So I was just lying inside the court crying my heart out because I can't defend my title wc is the DAVRAA Champion, I really wanted to finish it but my coach stopped me. He forced me to just retire in the game. And then, after my knee got better he talked to me and told me to stop crying bc it wasn't worth it and it was my choice to not practice properly and regularly.. so yeah he was scolding me while I was crying in pain. But he was correct, it was all my fault. I was pretty relax about the game knowing that my opponent is training very hard! So bc of it, I just accepted my defeat. Me and Ipay are very good friends, we're enemies inside the court but not outside the court!! We're pretty much like best friends I could say.. haha we even took pictures after the game! =))
pic.twitter.com/eOX7ZMkgKv
(I don't have the pic in my laptop so I'm just gon' give you the link!)
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